Thursday, October 6, 2011

I just needta venttttt.

That sounds like it could be a song.
Anyhow, I just need to get a few things off of my chest, and since nobody reads my blog, I figured this is the most desirable avenue.

1) You.
Get over yourself. Plzkthx.
I thought you were my friend.
I know that it's ridiculous of me to get this upset over a few dollars, but I'd like to think that this is just the straw that broke the proverbial camel's back.
Out of every friend I've ever made in my whole life, you've been the one that's lasted the longest. That's saying something, because we both know I'm not very good at keeping friends.
You know just how much I've been walked on and taken advantage of in my life, and I thought you cared about me enough to NOT contribute to it.
I know you didn't need that money; you get exactly what you want, when you want it, without having to pay for jack diddly.

2) You.
It would be awesome if you could just disappear. Plzkthx.
As soon as I'm feeling okay, as soon as I'm getting back into the swing of things, as soon as I've successfully convinced myself that it's over and done and I'm totally cool with that, you seem to take that as your cue to show up.
Whether it be at work, at school, or on my phone, I can't escape.
It's like you know when I'm at my weakest, and all you see me as is a prime opportunity.
Well, I have bad news for you: Even at my weakest point today, I'm stronger than I ever was when I was naive enough to let you in.

3) You.
Give yourself a reality check. Plzkthx.
I don't know who or what gave you the idea that it's okay to try what you pulled, but darlin', news flash: That was just weird.
I wish so much you had just let things be. We were friends and I loved that.
You were one of the few guys in my life that I thought I could just talk to, chill with, and have fun with without any of that underlying discomfort and unsureness.
... That was cool while it lasted.
PS Stop being such a pothead, good grief. It's illegal and being high doesn't make you cool. I hate to be such a party pooper, but every party needs one and I guess that's why you invited me.

Do I just have a big sign taped to my forehead reading,
"Hi, I'm Sierra.
I would really love it if you could find any way you can to use me today.
Thank you for your time.

?? :(