Thursday, January 27, 2011

The (not so) grand switcheroo.

Is it just me, or does it seem like men and women have switched roles completely?
I think men have kind of forgotten how to be strong. Pursuers. Chivalrous.
Everything that comes to my mind when I think of a real man has kind of vanished.

As a result, I've seen women around me - who are already desperate, mind you - go to extreme lengths in order to get noticed by guys who are too lazy to do much about it anyway.
And it makes me sad.

I see it happen all the time. At work, at school, at a random restaurant in which the table full of awkward, giggly teen girls are trying way too hard to get the attention of the semi-attractive waiter.
As I sit back and watch all of this go down, I wonder what in the world caused it and when in the world it happened.

If any of you know me at all, you probably recognize the fact that I am one of the least romantic girls who has ever lived.
I hate dresses. I hate shopping for them and I hate wearing them.
I'm really not a big fan of the whole "let's read poetry and take long walks on the beach" idea.
I'd much rather sit at home with pizza and Mountain Dew and video games.

But I can still appreciate a man who can be a man.
A man with morals and life goals and drive and really great hair.
A man who can be my best friend, but still give me butterflies every time he touches my hand.
A man who's willing to step it up and actually pursue a lady, rather than sit back and wait for her to practically sit at his feet and beg him to give her the time of day.
I'll never be that girl, and I wonder if there's "that guy" out there.
Time will tell :D

Sunday, January 23, 2011

The start of something new.

... And now that dadgum High School Musical song is going to be stuck in my head for who knows how long...
::turns on Regina Spektor to prevent any further HSM-singing::
::sees that Zune has a major scratch on screen::
::cries::
(That was just for you, Sierra Eberle.)

I guess I need an iPod now, like everyone else...

Side note: I'm going to stop capitalizing my posts like they're titles. Only the first word will be capitalized. I've decided that's sufficient.

SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW. I can't believe I'm this excited.
I'm stoked to meet new people, mostly.
I mean, the learning part will be cool, too... I guess...
Just getting out there again will be fun.
But with school starting also comes my full-time work position in full swing.
Tomorrow, I have to be at work 15 minutes after I get out of school.
Same with Wednesday.
I'm gonna need some supernatural assistance plzkthx.

Ah, this week is going to be good, I think.
I got to talk to a really cool person tonight who shed a lot of light on my current situation without knowing it XD
I got to return the favor.

I am in repairrrrr...
::listens to John Mayer::

Okay, Sierra, I'm done.

Goodnight, world! (;

Friday, January 21, 2011

I Wonder.

I wonder why the McDonald's drive-thru line is always longer than the Jimmy John's drive-thru line. America, you don't know what you're missing out on!
What a sad and tasteless world we live in.
"Disappointed, but not surprised." <-- I wonder if that's possible.
I wonder how Aaron Stern knows exactly what to say to me, even though he has no idea what I'm going through.

I wonder... (here comes the lengthy one)
how I can think I want something so badly for 9 months, and then when the opportunity finally comes knocking at my door, I have no doubt in my mind that the right thing to do is say no.
Mind that I don't say it's easy,
it's just... right.
I wonder if I ever really wanted it at all.
Aye, and if not, I wonder why I gave so much.

I wonder if it really is impossible to frown whilst eating a Frosty. I've never tried.
If there's someone who never texts you back, don't you wonder if it's because what you said is completely void of any real substance? I'd prefer to think that it's because whatever I said is something so clever and profound that the other person forfeits and just allows me to say the last word.
I wonder why Hollywood is so set on making pain look so desireable. Watch Remember Me and tell me you don't want to be in that situation, no matter how crappy we all know it truly is.
I WONDER WHY THIS CAT WON'T GET OFF MY LAP >_> Cats aren't supposed to be cuddly creatures! ::confused::
I'm starting to wonder if there really is a loving, personal God out there who hears the prayers of the righteous people around me and is starting to reach out again, even though I've pulled away for so long, wanting to live my own life and make my own decisions,
and I'm starting to believe the answer is yes.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart.

Since when did I become so adult-like? Not sure I'm a big fan of it.
My job just became full-time. Forty hours a week.
I switched my major and am getting ready to go back to school. Also full-time.
Full-time + full-time = x_x
I'm not sure I'm ready to handle this.
We'll find out. If I'm still alive by the end of February, I think I'll probably throw a party.
Forget Valentine's Day, I'm going to celebrate "I'm surviving 2011 thus far" Day.
Valentine's is overrated anyways c;

ALSO
Since when did I become so hipster-like?
That's definitely the word that three different people have used to describe me over the past two days.
... I don't really have anything else to say about that. I was just making an observation.

I was definitely overtaken by a rush of creativity tonight, and I ended up making a spontaneous Wal-Mart trip to pick up magazines and posterboard and glue sticks. It was the bomb.
I was so excited by it I ended up eating my yogurt and granola way too fast and I gave myself a stomachache.
I also forgot how creative and wonderful the Juno soundtrack is.

I'm feeling way too random tonight. I could write for hours, but I have to be up at 4am!
AHHHYAYYYY!

I'll leave you with this final thought, though:
I have never met anything - or anyone - that frustrates me as much as my garage door. Ferreals.